Is it normal to feel like your body isn't surprising or special?
With all the freely available nudity online and offline, and given most people's nonchalant attitudes toward sex, how could I ever show someone special my body without feeling like a clone of everyone else? I know that everyone looks different. Yes, everyone is unique, everyone has the same parts and all, but sexually it's just not the same.
It's not that I want to be with some sheltered virgin or something who doesn't even know what reproductive organs look like (aside from their own), but it just hurts to think that if I want to give myself to someone special that they'll probably think "I know what I'm in for. I've seen a million of these." And then there's no mystery or anything. Like I have nothing new to bring to the table. ._.
Secretly, I just wish that what's between our legs was a mystery. Each person's would be vastly different, with no two alike. And that the only person who could see it is your soulmate. I know that sounds ridiculous and is flawed for several reasons, but it's just how I feel.
This bothers me a great deal for some reason, though I can't seem to find any discussions that relate to it via search engines. I don't know if anyone understands or can relate to this, so I thought I'd post it here.