Is it normal to feel like this all the time

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I was always exposed to so much negativity as a child, my fathers constant verbal abuse has affected me so much that I despise the person I am today. My father used to tell me I was worthless, since the moment I was born, he literally gave no shits about me and my siblings, and he still does not. He used to tell us we'd be nothing in life, that we are all failures at the age of fucking 7, how can you say that to a child? your own child? He used to make us read very sophisticated books at around 6 years old and verbally/physically abuse us if we got any words wrong (and much worse things) This negativity has had such an impact in my life that I believe everyone is my enemy, that everyone hates me the way he does, I have social anxiety because of him, I dont have any friends and I will not allow myself to talk to any boys or let any boy in, and it's ruined so many good friendships that I am now lonely, I have no one. I'm always in such a constant bad mood, I always feel down.. I've googled these symptoms and manic depressions is usually the diagnosis. However, I don't think it's that sever because I've never thought of suicide.. I hate thinking about my future, I have no motivation and I hate my life in general

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  • Ellenna
    8 years ago

    You need professional help: you didn't have a choice as a child given your circumstances, but you can choose not to live with the consequences for the rest of your life.

    You sound depressed, which is understandable, but I don't know where the manic part is coming from and it's usually called Bi Polar now anyway and is treatable.

    Please get some help and good luck

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