Is it normal to feel like this?

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I'm almost certain that I started out life - for as long as i can remember anyway - with Selective Mutism.

It is a fairly rare form of speach disorder, that can be compared with social anxiety. Speach is literaly not possible - it feels pysicaly impossible to speak in certain situations or/and with ceratin people.

If is not treated properly, then it develops into social anxiety, depression, withdrawl ect.

I am 24 now and there is not one person who has ever truly believed how impossible it has been for me to speak. I feel angry (even though its no ones fault really) and let down by the people who I love because although they care for me and show it, they have never given me what I have really needed, resulting in me feeling unloved, unwanted and usless.

And to rub it in, my lack of interest and motivation - due to no energy and painful encounters with everyone else in the world, makes people think I don't give a f**k about anyone.

It's such a struggle to just get through a day.

I hate sounding like a whinning little sh*t, but no one really does understand!

Am I normal? Is this normal?

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Based on 32 votes (14 yes)
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  • geekmaster
    13 years ago

    You should definitely seek help. Social disorders are very treatable, but you can't fight them alone. I personally have one, and until I sought treatment, I felt just like you. The fact that your family didn't listen to you may be a big part of this; sometimes the best cure for mutism is just someone who's willing to listen. At this point, you should see a psychiatrist. And join a support group; talking to other people who have the same problem as you is very helpful. And don't let anyone talk down to you for being "abnormal;" everyone is abnormal in their own way. It's normal to not be normal.

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    Of course its not normal but i have the feeling u can over come it just work at it you'll het there(:

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  • [Old Memory]
    14 years ago

    Are you actually diagnosed and being treated? It doesn't sound like it. I suggest you do, and get help around your anger at the same time.

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  • Senken
    14 years ago

    You sound liek a bitch. make some hopes, some dreams

    REACH FOR THE SKY AND PULL IT DOWN! NOTHING CAN HOLD YOU DOWN. JUST DRILL YOUR WAY TO THE HEAVENS!

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  • leahquestions
    14 years ago

    go to the doctor and get a cat scan on your brain there may very well be aphysical explanation that could mean a cure or at least alternative methods and possibly speech therapy good luck

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