Is it normal to feel guilty about who i cheated on not that i cheated

I am 18 years old and come from a mildly dysfunctional family. I just moved to college two months ago, and I have a boyfriend named John. John and I are both new to relationships (i.e. neither of us had had a previous relationship) and we decided to give it a try. I love John, and I never really intended to hurt him, but sadly, one night/(really early in the morning) after clubbing with some of my friends, I accidentally on purpose had sex with a random marine (whose by the by name is Jodi according to my friend the next morning/afternoon). I enjoyed the sex (mild understatement) and got very banged up (understatement of the year). But immediately, I noticed that I had become everything I abhor. I feel utterly awful about how it will make John feel...it tears me up. However, I don't regret the act at all... I wonder, do you think this is normal? By the way, this was written by my best friend, I'm generally not this sarcastic and carefree... But anyway, what are your opinions on the matter?

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  • 8Serene8

    The fact you cheated makes you a disgusting person.

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  • Wow, only one right comment. Ignore people who are instantly calling you a whore, they're probably drunk/desperate teenage boys with no understanding or sympathy. The above comment is someone who doesn't understand that you are asking for help/knowledge, not judgement, but may have been recently hurt by a cheater or something, so I won't judge him(her) back.
    On to the main point, sex is nice, we all love sex. We all love excitment. What better way than to combine the two into a one night stand affair? I'm not justifying it, and I wouldn't do it again, but it's normal to try it. You need to relax a little. You should tell your boyfriend what happened, because he has the right to know, and the right to decide. If he decides to leave you, then you should understand that he was just hurt. Think how you might react in the opposite situation? If he gives you another chance, don't blow it, and remember what he means to you always.
    And never let anyone talk down on you, because people who judge others are simply people without the self confidence to judge themselves.

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  • gako

    Once a cheater always a cheater. I would hit you with a bat if you had done that to me

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  • cinnalife

    "Accidentally on purpose"?!?! Lol just say on purpose.

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  • SpontaneousSteve

    Keyno, nice input. I'd say something like that if I didn't have so much hate against cheaters.. They all need to suffer in extreme agony. Yup.

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  • Complex4

    Agreed with Keyno...

    Give it a break guys....

    Shes 18. Its her FIRST EVER relationship....and John's too.
    Shes young(irresponsible) and new to this...so shes probably not mature enough to understand the seriousness of commiting to a person...

    Tell John about what happened...He has the right to know...NO keeping secrets in a relationship....

    Its his choice to be with u or not....

    BUT If u r serious about him(not just fooling around...YAY i got a boyfriend) and u BOTH wanna give the relationship another shot, Then Dont break his TRUST again....It isnt nice to play around with someone's feelings....

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  • vera046

    Those previous comments are full of shit. You're young so ofcourse you like having sex with someone you barely know because it's new. Young people like to experiment that's a fact. The same happend to me when I was your age. Meaningless sex. I felt guilty because I loved my boyfriend, but I liked the one night stand. I didn't break up with my boyfriend but I did tell him. He decided to give me another chanche and now three years further we are still together. Happier than ever. It asked a lot of trust from him, but like your boyfriend he is a nice guy. If you really love your boyfriend then don't do it again, because it's not worth it. It's just something you need to try once.

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  • SpontaneousSteve

    First off... I really enjoy whores like you. I can just bang the shit out of you and make sure you had an amazing night. A night to remember aww :) 2nd. I can understand why you've never been in a relationship before because you club all night and become a whore with multiple men, preferably marine looking men I see, I'd pass aww :) 3rd why do you have to get overly intoxicated at a club and be in a relationship with a good guy? Oh yeah because your a whore. Seems to me you have foreverwhoresyndrome, you can't be committed in a relationship and you have sex with guys with wired names
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    Jodi? Haha.. Get your self checked
    You whore and go see a psychologist.

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  • BoredGuy

    ok, I will help you. first is this the beginning of you being a whore? or happened before with past relationships? w/e is the case break up with ur bf right away. better not tell him that you decided you wanna be a whore cause he will lose faith in women (come to think of, maybe it's better, earlier he get the msg the better). secondly you shouldn't actively try to find a new bf, as a whore who respect herself you should only have fuckers. and thirdly if for some weird and inexplicable reason you decide that you want a bf(?!?) in the future make sure you break up with him before you resume your whore career. (grosses me out to think that I put my dick in a vagina that have been used by some other guy, it's like dicks touching ewww! is not like you gals wash that shit inside! maybe after the period is clean enough!)

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    • awkwardali

      I would tell him...it just sucks to keep secrets like that, especially for the other person. You should probably leave out the part about you really enjoying cheating on him..............

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  • Curiousme1981

    This is normal you don't wanna to be in your 30s with a banging body and only gave it up to one guy. Life is full of regrets don't let this be one.
    Have fun explore but safely. :)

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  • pinkyloco25

    this is my boyfriend's account but....

    I was 21 when I met my boyfriend, now I'm 24. We've been together for 3 years. When we first started dating, probably within a month or a month and a half I ended up going on vacation for a few days with my mom and during that vacation I got really "friendly" with an old friend of mine. It's kind of funny how similar our stories are because I never really planned on doing anything like that behind my boyfriend's back either. Even though we've only been together for a month, I still somehow felt like he was the one and there was no way in hell I had even the slightest thought of cheating. Even about 30-40 minutes before I had another man go inside me I sent my boyfriend a text that said that I loved him and missed him very much. But regardless it happened, also in the early hours and very spontaneous. I was however very intoxicated and stoned out of my mind so I don't quite remember the sex, except for my friend was very well hung...a little "TOO" well I'd have to say. But all in all I had one of the best nights in Vegas if you look back on it, a night of gambling/drinking topped off with hot sex in the early morning hours. Who could ask for more? However in my case, I went behind my boyfriend's back and when I thought about him and specifically telling him about it, it made me sick to my stomach. So I decided not to. He didn't suspect anything at all, however I was very sloppy. I talked to my "friend" from Vegas on the phone non-stop even when my bf was there. I was trying to organize another trip down there to see my friend. And to be honest it wasn't because of sex, I just didn't know why I wanted to act the way I did.

    Anyway my bf finally found out about a year later. When he confronted me at first I told him that I didn't feel bad at all and that I felt like that was something he didn't need to know. But who am I to decide? and it's actually something he HAS to know. And I did actually feel really bad when I thought about it but on the other hand I didn't because I know that if I was ever put in the same situation right now, with how I feel about him, I would never do it. Back then...I wasn't sure. I know that he was PRETTY sure back then but that's kind of his fault.

    All in all, do tell him and tell him soon. Good thing Jodi doesn't matter to you. Try sleeping with an old good friend of yours, who now is off limits.

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  • wigsplitz

    hah, Jodi is the unisex name for the person that your guy/gal is sleeping with while you're away in the military. LOL. Made my day.

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  • chaosdragoon1

    Actually...you are asking for judgement posting anything on this site. Hence the name "is it normal?" people JUDGE whether what you post is normal or not.

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  • monkey2244

    you are not a whore or a categorical cheater, your just a person, and at the age of 18 nothing you do actually matters or says anything about who you will be in 2 years. if you were a dude, no one wouldve said shit because this bored is misogynistic as fuck. its totally ok to have random sex, and a couple months is not a committed relationship at all, thats like thinking one date makes you bf and gf, this isnt high school your an adult.

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  • one_guy

    Well you're 18 like everyone else said sex is going to be good especially when you're not that experienced on it. And obviously you don't care about "John" so why be with him?? Don't tell him what you did otherwise you will be considered a whore on his eyes.

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  • Lizizawesome

    Do you like sex? If so then Hell Yea its normal. If your man can't handle you wanting sex all the time then of course you're going to cheat. It's like taking a cigarette out of the hands of a constant smoker, breaking it and expecting them not to flip shit. If you like sex, have it. It might not have been good to cheat, but the fact that you were honest and told him shows nobility.

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