Is it normal to feel guilty about cheating on your boyfriend when....
is it normal to feel guilty about cheating on your boyfriend when he cheated on you 1OO times before. I really do love this kid but we went through alot and by alot i mean alot. we are both teens and have about 2 years together the thing is that when I first went out with him it was because I was depressed and had low self esteem. Please dont judge but my boyfriend is in a gang even though he does NOT smoke and does NOT do druggs and he is 19. The thing is I went out with him knowing that he was a player and never believed no one and really did not care. He did start hurting me alot and played me with alot of girls. I suffered alot but if i did break up with him he would go crazy. There was a time I was really going to leave him and he almost fought his uncle, mom and aunt and started crying and since that day he really has changed for the better. But anyways So there came a day when I did play him bad a few times with different people and until this day he does not know but this was last year. he has calmed down and for 5 months we been ok I guess even though I got this really really guilty conscious. He really does not think i cheated on him and thinks I am innocent. I really do love him alot but I always feel like I wont be able to be with him forever because his life is different from mine and our relationship has to many secrets. i have not done anything else since then because even if he does play me again regardless of the consequences I would leave him. Also he never had a relationship for more then 4 months with out having two girls and people did say i changed him alot and he doesnt get in trouble no more and pretty much quit all the gang stuff. any advice?? Am i a bad person....