Is it normal to feel everything all the time?
I feel things constantly, and no matter what I have tried over the years to numb it, or quiet it, or calm it - nothing seems to work. I've tried alcohol, cannabis, prescription anti-anxiety pills, the works! I've seen shrinks and therapists, tried hypnosis, meditation, read just about every self-help book I could find and nothing helps.
I am constantly in a state of being over-stimulated. It's like there is some filter other people are born with, which I didn't get. It's more than I can bear, when people are hurtful. When I love, I love intensely and can't hold back. Other people seem to be able to cruise through life and ignore all the hatred, jealousy, insults, attacks and other nastiness life dishes out, but it rips me to pieces.
Loud sounds, people chewing gum, grating noises drive me insane and I lose my concentration/focus. I hate when bars have the music on so loud that I can't hear what people are saying. I fantasize about spending a few months in an isolation chamber!