Is it normal to feel enormous hate when you are loved?

I just signed up because I needed to get this out of my head, it's been bugging me ever since I was 13.

To give you some background information:
When I was 6 I experienced the term ''first-love''- this was when I really liked a girl and we played together and told eachother we were going to get married one day. When she left school when I was 7 I was crying for days, wondering if I'd ever see her again.

The years after were less intense ''love experience'', mostly because I didn't receive any love back from the girls I fell in love with. (this was about when I was 9-12).

I'm a fairly good looking guy, and I'm pumped with confidence and good intellect, but I hate it that every time those aspects get overthrown by money.

Yes, money is a HUGE factor in the hate that I feel, you see, when I was 13 I went to another school (I don't live in the USA, in my country when you're about 13 you go to another school).

Anyway, I did fell in love again a couple of times, and I DID notice they had interest in me, but somehow they chose some assholes over me (real assholes) because their parents were rich and they go on expensive worldtrips and don't worry about anything....
Yes I do have a lot of those people who are very wealthy in my school, mostly because it's quite ''upperclass'' school....

This concurred about 4 times, with the last time being last week.....it just hurts.

Is it that because of sooooo many heart broken moments for money reasons, that I just shield myself for any affection shown towards me?

-Also to note, I'm not poor, I just never go on vacation :(

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Comments ( 6 )
  • nanimeow

    I don't want someone because of their money. I don't want to support someone but their income does not matter too much. Yes, it would be a perk.
    Also, I find it odd that four girls had the same results in the end. You might be bias for some reason and don't have an accurate take on their opinion.

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  • Heh?

    The title seems inaccurate.

    How do you know the people that were interested in you loved you? Maybe they just wanted to be friends.

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  • joybird

    Chill out!
    It may seem that school is your only chance of meeting girls but wait til you grow up. You won't even remember the names of these girls! When you have your own career you will meet loadsa nice girls who like you for who you are.

    Enjoy your youth - it passes in an instant. Concentrate on getting good grades for a good job, then you'll get the best girls.

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  • kekkiumai

    That's awfully a lot of falling in love. Are you sure it wasn't just infatuation.

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  • dappled

    My grandfather once told me that women are in the nest-feathering business, and men are in the legover business. That women want security (with money being the modern security) and men want to sow their wild oats.

    It's a gross generalisation, but there's a tiny grain of truth in it. And for good evolutionary reason. The world is as it is. You're just going to have to accept it.

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  • xino00

    this is good sign!

    why?
    because you are not being with someone who only loves you for your money!

    I don't even know why you want to be with a hoochy like them>:/

    true love will come to you, just wait! someone who will love you for yourself and not for your money.

    and if no woman comes for you, then all women are h0es who loves money:P

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