Is it normal to feel disgusted by being close with people?
I cannot stand being close to people either physically or emotionally. I find touching others or being touched by others gross. I could't even drink from the same bottle or take a bite of the same sandwich someone else did before. That's just disgusting.
The same goes for being emotionally close. People barely know me because I just don't want them to know anything about me. If someone knew a lot about me, it would make me feel more close to the person, which would make feel disgustingly uncomfortable.
However, it's completely different when I'm attracted to the person, then I don't feel like that at all and I want to be as close as possible.