Is it normal to feel a strong desire to kill something and almost do?

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All I ask is your answer on this question, is it normal to have a strong desire to kill something, and almost succeed in doing so? Because all my life, I have had that desire, and almost succeeded many times. When I was 5, my family's puppy had angered me too many times. I had gotten a knife and walked over to him. If it wasn't for my mother walking by and seeing the knife, I would have succeeded in murdering that horrible dog, but through all the yelling, I had a smile plastered on my face, knowing that the puppy wouldn't cross me again. When I was 9 a boy I had a crush on at school had ignored a letter I sent him, it made me so mad, I followed him to the park, with a knife in hand. I had a thing for knifes, if he hadn't run off to join a group of boys, he wouldn't have been coming to school the next day. I've done a lot more things during my high school years, but I've never been caught by police, or been sent to a rehab center. Is this normal?

accept I'm a psychopath 17
deny these desires 11
relish in these desires 4
do nothing about it 3
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  • flyingnostalgia
    8 years ago

    Get your head together.

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  • Forestheart
    8 years ago

    An asylum sounds like a nice place for you. Don't worry you'll make many friends there.

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    • deanAzara
      8 years ago

      My high school would give us passes to have free tours at the asylum neighboring the school, I've seen what they do. And trust me, it's not pretty. Especially for the young children brought in.

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      • dirtybirdy
        8 years ago

        You have a problem with how people are treated in an asylum but you want to kill people and animals for no damn reason?? You're a bit screwy, kid.

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        • deanAzara
          8 years ago

          I had a reason, both of those targets had crossed me. My own mother tries her best not to cross me after what almost happened to the puppy. Those "doctors" in the asylum make me sick, they open up the skulls of children to find out what's wrong with them, and in the process they damage their brain, turning them into zombie acting things. I wanted those people dead, all of those "patients" didn't need to be there, in my eyes they were perfectly fine.

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          • dirtybirdy
            8 years ago

            How exactly does a puppy cross you when you're 5 years old??? And a boy who didn't reciprocate your feelings? That's not crossing you. You have major issues and I'd guess that your mother is terrified of you. You need help asap.

            Where do you live where doctors still practice very old fashioned methods? Someone who is as troubled as you are would be better off as a "zombie".

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            • deanAzara
              8 years ago

              You obviously don't understand, but how can I blame you? You probably never went through what I had gone through as I grew up, all of those people in asylums, children and adults they are perfectly fine, they just see life differently. The only reason that they're trapped in that prison is because society is afraid of them, afraid that they might find out about all the injustice that has been caused. Insane, is practically the same as sane, we all see life differently, but some people decide to pick on the ones who see life too differently. Those people, are the ones that make me sick, like you. You don't like how I see life, so your mad, because I don't see life like you do. Don't be like the rest of society, society is cruel and unfair, society is a monster.

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      • Forestheart
        8 years ago

        I've visited quite a few asylums, some of them actually had good facilities. But I've seen some disturbing scenes as well.
        But as for the op the asylum is a good option. Better than prison at least. She may have failed quite a few times, but her next targets might not be so lucky.

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  • davesumba
    8 years ago

    I used to have the same feelings. Until one night, an angel told me about how demons are alive and active today, just as much as they were during biblical times. The types of mental and physical illnesses they cause, and how some of the healing Jesus and his disciples did in the Bible was casting out these demons (and unclean spirits), and people can still do that today. That I needed to accept Jesus as my Lord and Savior, repent from my sins, and he would help me fight these demons.

    After I did that, I received the Holy Spirit (I physically and mentally felt it fill me up). Now the Holy Spirit convicts me when thoughts are not right ( some of our thoughts are implanted by demons), and we can either accept them as our own, dwell on them, and become them as the demon gains a stronghold in our life, or we can reject these thoughts immediately (don't even let yourself think about it, or play it out in your head) and replace them with a "godly" thought.

    It's called "spiritual warfare."

    Some books that have helped me overcome these feelings are "Victory over Darkness" and "The Bondage Breaker." We are weak, but He is strong. Sometimes we can't help our selves, but God can.

    But the first step is forgiving everyone in your life, no matter what they have done. "And whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against anyone, so that your Father also who is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses." Mark 11:25

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    • deanAzara
      8 years ago

      Okay, thank you! Finally a nice person decides to comment! I will look up those books! And I always pray to god, but nothing seems to have helped. I think that maybe if I read a book to help it might work since books were my only childhood friend when I was younger. And again, Nice person has commented!

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    • lololol777
      7 years ago

      What the fuck mental people everywhere

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  • dirtybirdy
    8 years ago

    "Sphycopath" indeed.

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  • RoseIsabella
    8 years ago

    I would follow Dave's advice, and seek professional help. You might have a personality disorder or mood disorder. No offense, but I can't imagine anything a puppy could do to slight anyone. Also just, because someone you have a crush on doesn't return your affections doesn't give you a right to try to kill them.

    How would you like it if others held you to the same standards as you hold them? Would it be okay for some guy to try to kill you if you hurt his feelings, because you weren't interested in him?

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  • putitinhoe
    8 years ago

    not normal. like, at all.

    get help and try not to commit homicide along the way.

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  • donteatstuffoffthesidewalk
    8 years ago

    git a huntin license

    go kill & eat bambi

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  • lololol777
    7 years ago

    what the hell how does a puppy piss you off? Fuck off mate the only thing you should be killing is yourself

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  • IWANK2URFACEBOOKPICS
    8 years ago

    YOU'RE NOT THAT BAD. TRUST MEEE!

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  • Jinpai
    8 years ago

    You sound like you're a person who has a short temper and is also a sadist. That is a very dangerous combination. Everybody loves Yanderes.

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  • Rihyae
    8 years ago

    I have those sometimes, but I don't want to go to jail so yeah.

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  • thegypsysailor
    8 years ago

    I would suggest that you exercise your murderous inclinations on yourself first. See how things work out.

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