Is it normal to fantasize incest?
My father started molesting me when I was 11. He took my virginity on my 13th birthday and continued having sex with me until I was 16. The only reason it stopped is because he passed away in an excavating accident. But ever since then I cannot achieve an orgasm unless I fantasize that I'm having sex with my dad. I feel disgusted and ashamed after I reach an orgasm to this fantasy but when the next time comes around I cant help but give in to the fantasy. I have never told anyone this before and I just want to know if this is normal for someone who has been abused like me or not?