Is it normal to fall in love with a shizophrenic bipolar?
I was 15 he was 19. I was naive, and he was a playa. After i found out he was cheating on me.. i couldnt believe it. I was angry and somehow still loved him. I left to a military school for five months.. when i got out.. i immediately contacted him. Long story short we got back together and he cheated on me again.. 4 times that i know of. Still I cared for him.. and yeah i know its totally stupid. His parents kicked him out of the house.. i convinced my aunty to let him stay with us.. and i got pregnant a few months after i turned 18. I wish i could go back in time and tell myself how stupid i am. We fight all the time because hes so crazy and gets mad over something stupid. When he's mad he can't communicate effectively. He doesn't know how to behave with others it makes everything so awkward. I hate going out with him in public or being with him in front of my friends or family because he is so embarrassing. I never really noticed this before because we'd never do anything serious. Hes really good at making jokes and making me laugh all the time. But when it comes down to serious things or like even simple tasks he just suckes because he is really stupid. He has ZERO common sense. I yell at him all the time and sometimes I would hit him if he's in his "angry idiot mode." most of our fights will be him yelling random absurd shit... and me saying "what does that have to do with anything?! you never respond to what i say" idk. its just crazy.. when we are not fighting we just crack jokes at eachother. IDK he pays our rent, drives me to college but i think he's driving me crazy. I've lost all my friends because of him. Everyone thinks im weird for being with him.. and i feel like im always being judged when im with him so i like to roll my eyes and call him stupid when he acts weird in public. IDK what should i do?