Is it normal to enjoy my abusive relationship?
My bf and I have an interesting relationship, and sometimes it scares me. Most of the time, he treats me like a child. He never lets me have my way, and yells at me if I do anything to upset him. He never lets me tease him, make a joke at his expense, and when he is angry, (Which is fairly often) he screams and yells for a very long time. Sometimes he even breaks things. When I try and take something that he doesn't want me to have, he will slap my hands, and when he wants me to do something he will push me, or even swat me. Sometimes this all makes me mad. I never asked for any of this, and I really think he is bipolar or something. However, there is a part of me that finds a thrill in being treated like a helpless child. There is a certain thrill when he yells at me, and makes me cry and apologize. And when he hits me, even though it terrifies me, I think about if for days afterwards and feel small and helpless, and content. In the end, I usually end up loving him all the more after one of his outbursts. Am I weird?