Is it normal to dispise rich people to this point...?
I come from a poor background and have lived half of my life as poor while the other half in a rich family with good conditions. Somehow I always wanted to live poor and even miserable at one point. I think it makes you pay more attention to what you do. I associate rich people with selfishness, greed and along that line while I associate poorness to care for the other and for self. My mentality goes along that line so much that whenever I work in my rich country I think about all the other people starving out there and find it absurd to be paid that much. Can that be normal to dispise your own wealth and that of those who give it or are associated with it? Sometimes I work like crap or act like crap just so I feel closer to my country of origin which is a poor country. I dispise most of my colegues because I assume they are there to gain the good money while they could be working in the nighbouring contry where they get paid less. Actually I dispise my mother and her rich boyfriend too. It's because of him that we moved to the rich country, but at the same time I love my mother because I still live with her and she takes good care of me. It's almost as if I don't even need work, but when I do work I kinda dispise it.