Is it normal to dislike your "normal" family?

I am 15. I can honestly say that I hate my family, but hate is such a strong word and I am raised in a place where children should ((have to)) love their families, so I'm not so sure. My parents raised me, they feed me, they gave me money, clothes and education, so I love them. But can I say I like them? mm, not so much.

Before we start, I just want to clarify that my family is normal. No one is an alcoholic. Or sex-addict. We are all normal, just like a normal family. My dad has a great job with a fine salary, my mom is a happy house-wife, and my siblings are doing just fine. I don't think I have depression. But sometimes, in one of those days where everything sucks, I self-harmed. But just because I self-harmed, doesn't make me depressed, right? I'm not a doctor, and I don't think I can self-diagnose. And my cuts are never too deep, just deep enough to feel the pain, and that's all. I suffer from anxiety (I got a diagnose from my friend's older sister, who is a psychologist. Therefore no one in the family knows I have anxiety).

In junior high, I rarely talk to my family, but they still try to get me in the conversation. My dad still jokes around with me, and my mom still smiles at me, even if those rarely happen. But ever since high school started, they stopped caring.

My dad is always as cold as stone, "being raised in a family of soldiers." that's what my mom would tell me whenever he yelled at me and my siblings, or whenever he throws/breaks things, or whenever he hits us. It looks like he has anger issues but I know he doesn't, he is kind, but... if things get rough and he is in a bad mood, he could turn into someone i seriously dont know.
My mom is the total opposite. She has never hits us, she only yells. And she rarely does that. She only does whenever we do wrong things, like forgetting our homework, etc. But ever since I got into high school, she started to yell often, and it's always about my grades, my attendance at school, or about my studying progress.
I rarely see my siblings anymore. They don't care, either.

And I feel like no one in the house supports me of whatever i love or i choose. I wanted to go to an university, which is overseas, and my dad shows me no support. I wanted to pick chemistry as a major, and my mom shows me no support. I wanted to take extra classes, but my dad shows me no support. Even when I wanted to go to a festival near my school (its pretty far), my parents show me no support, even after i said i'd be home before 5.
This is why i don't like being home, i love going to courses because there are teachers, and those teachers, they love me. They ask my days, we eat lunch together, we laugh, we're like a real family, where i can share the things i want to share, and they support me for it, they comfort me whenever i need comfort.
Because i have a lot of courses, i tend to go home at 9PM, which is something my dad dislikes. I think this is why he's been ignoring me for weeks, or months, idk. But really?? it's just 9PM... and I was studying until 9... its not like i was out there drinking myself to death, or even having underage sex, etc.
I feel so alone and isolated at home, it hurts. I have no one to talk to, and no one understands. Whenever they scold me, I'd just keep quiet, because there's no use talking back, they would just yell at me more.

I want to hate them, I really do. But again, they're the ones who raised me, I would end up on the streets and uneducated without them. God, I just feel like running away, somewhere far away.

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Comments ( 10 )
  • wistfulmaiden

    You're 15... It's normal to feel this way.

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  • LinkIsG0D

    Stopped reading at "I am 15"

    When you get to be an adult you will realize no one wants to read an essay about your problems..damn

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    • Freedom_

      I was tempted to stop reading too, but OP actually sounds more mature than half the people on this website.

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      • LinkIsG0D

        Not really. I just skimmed it and all it says is basically "I hate my family and I cut myself", sounds like a pretty average 15 year old to me.

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        • charli.m

          From a verbally and physically abusive family...

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      • LinkIsG0D

        Not really. Just because he uses some punctuation doesn't make him/her "mature". I skimmed and all I see is "I hate my family and I cut myself" sounds like a pretty average 15 year old to me

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  • flyingnostalgia

    You lfe is meaningless and thats why you are feeling like this...

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  • RoseIsabella

    I am truly sorry, keep on studying, my dear. Maybe they're jealous or threatened by your intelligence and ambition. Perhaps they feel insecure about themselves when compared to you. They could, however, just be boring.

    Keep up the good work with your studies.
    ;-)

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  • handsignals

    Normal dislike IIN to your family

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  • FJK_frm_AK25

    U sound like a hella gd kid idk y ur family's trips on u at all I was a lil shit that got into all kinds of bad shit but rarly got in a lot of trouble I'm sorry shits like that with u.keep on doing what ur doing n fuck them.hang around those who show u the most support n havur back

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