Is it normal to detach at this moment?
My high ranking professor is really good but still very formal when talking to me eventhough we became closer compared to her other students.
It's now 4 years of me being attached to her. There's no negative thoughts for that since I am just happy treating her as my mom.
One sunny day, I just felt that I want to end our communication online w/out saying gudbye. It's bcoz I want to live a free life in cyberspace. Sometimes I am just opening my account online to check whether she is okay. Its like I depend myself to her. The fact that I didnt matter to her that much pushes me to really end it. But im planning to continue our connection after 3 -4 years of living on my own. And when I get back to her I will show my achievements so she will b proud of me someday.
2nd thought of doing this is that... my plans to b with her whenever she need someone or be with her when bad times are occuring might not happen anymore. im afraid, I will not b an impt person to her anymore after yearss of not staying in her side.. if that happens ill regret moving away from her. i might not return the state we are ryt now. what shall i do? :) tysm.