Is it normal to desire your own sister?
I am in my early 40’s and widowed for 6 years. My elder sister is in her mid 40’s and still single. Since I reached the age of puberty, I have been desiring to have sex with my sister and this desire never wears out and is still burning inside me. When we were both in our teens, there were some occasions when I discreetly made some moves to express my hidden desire by touching her thighs or rubbing mine with her under the table whenever we played cards, and she never complained nor resisted.
Several years had passed, I got married, widowed but she still remains single. I live now several miles from her house but we occasionally attend parties. She always invite me to spend the night in her house to keep me from driving at night. I sleep in her bedroom but on separate beds.
Is it normal to have the desire that I have?