Is it normal to crush negative feelings?

Feelings are physical things, they can be physically crushed, to do this put your hand near your heart, and with pressure crush it, you will feel hatred for the first time and feel better. I have feelings and I don't like my feelings, I get hurt, and the pain goes to my heart. Your feelings are shaped like a heart, even though you can't see them you can get rid of them. Just don't crush your brain, it will dumb you down. My mother's a pain in the arse, she makes me want to scream, and then I stop a third time so as to not disturb or wake up the neighbours. I feel a need to distance myself from all humans and to see only myself in my mother's house. My parents are bad, I can't stand them, I can't stomach my father. He gives me gross feelings and I feel icky for it. Gone perhaps are the days I ever get out of bed, worrying as I do, about the world and wars against everything I believe in. I'm tired of it, nobody believes me, and the nasty tone of sheer, pure meanness when I tell people to give me peace. My dignity doesn't exist, as people have been giving me a hard time, so next time that happens I'll crush my feelings, my heart has lost its love, and I can smell the evil in my dad. I try to create reality but it explodes in my face, the animals hate me and my cat bit me. I can't accept any of this the way it is, is that normal?