Is it normal to crossdress and feel nervous about judgements?
I'm a guy who loves to dress up in gorgeous, sexy lingerie. I feel nervous to wear them in public for fears of judgemental people staring in disgust. I realised I love to wear womens clothes since puberty when I tried on my mums sexy bra, which is rather large. I had a fascination of big boobs/bras since then, and picked up the courage to progressively buy my collection of lingerie and other clothes that make me feel sexy.
I have recently did the hardest thing ive ever done which was tell my friends that I did it, and how i was feeling because the rumour had leaked. Generally, I was accepted for who i am which is good but dont feel 100% confident about it round them and wearing them around my friends because i think they are thinking things about me.
I have worn lingerie at work a few times but was nearly caught because the lines showing through my clothes. I want to be able to wear what i want when i want.
Is it normal to feel worried that people are looking at me? Its as though I dont want to be caught but at same time I do want to be?