Is it normal to crave this act

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Complex question so plz bear with me. I was abused as a child and lately a lot of memories have started to come back for some reason. My abuser used to always perform a specific sex act on me but instead of being traumatised, I remember enjoying it at the time. This man would make it seem like a fun game so I didn’t know we were doing anything wrong. Now that I’m older, I’m obsessed with this sex act and can’t get enough of it. It’s left me feeling really confused because I don’t know if it still counts as sexual abuse if I enjoyed it.
I was extremely sexualised from a very early age and remember doing A LOT of very inappropriate things. What kind of child actually enjoys her abuse and then craves that same act when she gets older?? It just isn’t right. Surely I should feel disgusted when I think about it instead of feeling turned on?? Has anyone ever heard of other abuse survivors reacting like this?? Or am I just sick in the head??
I don’t know if I need some type of counselling as I’ve never told anyone about what happened to me. It would kill my parents if I told them now that they’re getting older, so I’m hoping I can either just put it behind me or look into online counselling.

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  • WeirdGuyFromTheSouth
    5 years ago

    Yeah its normal. This is why so many boys that are abused turn out gay. Their first sexual experience was with a man and that was what theyy associated pleasure with.

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  • Irisprism
    5 years ago

    Definitely abuse whether or not you were going along with it. It's just your body's reaction to pleasure. I've been abused before 2 and enjoyed it back then, it's okay to seek out the pleasure, if it feels good it feels good but therapy might be what you need it's not bad to get to know yourself if anything it's even more better

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  • Nikclaire
    5 years ago

    Unfortunately this is textbook. Sorry you had to go through this too. Do whatever you need to do to be ok with yourself. You did nothing wrong and the feelings you had were normal.

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  • [Old Memory]
    5 years ago

    It's definitely still abuse even if you enjoyed it...

    As for now just do what ever attracts you. Go live ya life.

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  • Meowypowers
    5 years ago

    Unfortunately it is all too common. Oftentimes people that are abused in a specific way, sadly seek out that abuse. You should seek therapy, it may take years. I experienced a long time of abuses, my therapist has helped me immensely.q

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  • [Old Memory]
    5 years ago

    I too, enjoyed it. I was told, “It’s what ‘big girls’ do.” Well, I wanted to be a big girl. I am now a totally committed cum slut, and love it. There’s not much I haven’t done, or wouldn’t do. No shame, no regrets!

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    • [Old Memory]
      5 years ago

      Lol, everyone thinks, or maybe knows, that you're male, but you still keep popping up and commenting the same slutty stuff.

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      • [Old Memory]
        5 years ago

        And you don’t know shit from apple butter!

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        • [Old Memory]
          5 years ago

          Mmmm, apple butter... No, wait! I'm eating out of the toilet!

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