Is it normal to crap on grandma's grave?

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I'm going to start off by saying that I know what I'm about to say is not quite normal. But basically I'm looking to find out if there's a way for me to ever be normal again. I'm 36 years old, I live alone, and I'm able to support myself through disability that I received 4 grand mal seizures. I don't have any problems taking care of myself, I don't shit myself even though that seems to be a trend here, but I'm very immature on the level of maybe a 12 year old. When I was a kid, I hated my grandmother. I hated her because she would always go out of her way it seemed to me, to get me in trouble with my parents and tattle on me. For the majority of my childhood, I stayed grounded for things I never did in missed out on so much childhood stuff. Around the age of 14 or 15, I developed a really weird ways to get revenge on people, like Bullies Are what not. So I thought I try the same thing on my grandma to get revenge which was prank calling and scaring the Daylights out of them so from the time I was fourteen up until my 18th birthday, or around that time, I would wait till 3 exactly in the morning and call my grandmother while she was asleep and wake her up and scream into the phone the phrase "hey old lady!!! I'm going to come over and shit all over your face!!!!" My grandma who was about 88 years old at the time was scared to death and would come to my house and cry to my father scared that someone was trying to hurt her but all I would do was just go into my room and laugh all day long. It got to the point where when she finally died I thought I would go out with one last hoorah and take a crap on her newly buried grave. I don't do things like this anymore but the problem is that I still to this day find it hilarious at the memory that I keep with me and in a sick way almost cherish to the point where I think of my grandmother being in hell and it makes me have to masturbate. Like I said I didn't know this isn't normal and I do see a psychiatrist. What I want to know is is there ever a chance of me living a normal rest of my life without having these thoughts and feelings?

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  • Somenormie
    3 years ago

    What you're doing is called desecration and I think you've got underlying childhood issues also like Boojum has just mentioned you need to go and seek help otherwise its going to keep bothering you a lot. I also understand why you would desecrate her grave to be honest at the same time even though desecrating a grave isn't good.

    Other reasons why you would need to move one is purely due to the fact that she might keep trying to ruin you ( as in affecting you even though you're a grown up as you've mentioned on your post ) even though she's already deceased.

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    • SethAmp6
      3 years ago

      Thank you for the kind words

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  • dicksteele
    3 years ago

    we live in a society

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  • Boojum
    3 years ago

    It's good you're seeing a psychiatrist, since there's an awful lot of anger in your post, and how you say the thought of your grandmother being in hell sexually arouses you is extremely weird.

    Whether you can get past this is largely up to you. If you're not being honest and open with your psychiatrist about your intrusive thoughts and all the other stuff going on in your head, nothing is going to change.

    Being 'normal' is overrated, but I find it hard to believe you can function in any sort of reasonably healthy way if you're heading for your forties and still stuck in an emotional loop that's been running since you were in your teens, and you're still consumed with hatred for your long-dead grandmother.

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    • Bazinga
      3 years ago

      I find a bit of irrational humor in these exposés of emotionally sick people that add a Darwinistic flavor to our sick sad world. Of course, his grandmother probably is in hell, and he may be headed there too. Not to be completely cold hearted here, I think partial adaptation to the world may be possible for him. If he were able to handle a pet with kindness and resist making it a target of sadistic impulses, that might be a good thing.

      I only wish him the best of luck.

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  • justdippinginthecesspool
    3 years ago

    "I think of my grandmother being in hell and it makes me have to masturbate."

    That right there was the point of no return. Not normal, though I think you'd fit in well on r/explicitliterature.

    As far as right or wrong, I've only heard your side of the story. Maybe your grandma was really an annoying old bag (in which case, have fun with the shitting and prank calls), oorrr, maybe you deserved to be tattled on as a kid because you were an asshat troublemaker.

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  • Tommythecaty
    3 years ago

    I laid down and pressed my head to the ground, the dirt was warm and I could hear her move....

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    • Bazinga
      3 years ago

      Dude. Your ability to make things squirmy is rather compelling. I think your first short story should start with the opening line, "I am not a necrophiliac...". Literature Noir needs a contributor like you. Lol, take a break from that hospital and share your talents with the world.

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      • Tommythecaty
        3 years ago

        Thanks man.

        I read a lot of marquis de sade writings when I was younger and it, along with some odd actual fetishes and actions, gives me that kind of imagination perhaps. I don’t know how well I’d do fleshing out a written piece though. I may give it a shot when I find time.

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        • Bazinga
          3 years ago

          Cool.

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          • Tommythecaty
            3 years ago

            🥴

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      • SethAmp6
        3 years ago

        Lol. Thank you. The story is indeed true. But I will admit that I've been writing my entire life, so maybe subconsciously it comes off as a story

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  • jodi1955
    3 years ago

    grandma will never know you shit on her grave, as she is not there, only the body the spirit or the soul of the person has moved on. all your doing is providing fertilizer

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    • justdippinginthecesspool
      3 years ago

      True, but just like funerals serve as closure for the living, I suppose disrespecting graves is for the conscience of the living as well.

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  • radicalleftistlobster
    3 years ago

    So... I'm not exactly sure where to begin. If I'm being honest, a similar thing happened in my life quite recently. I had a grandmother as well, died at age 94, named Nancy, but truly that's the extent to which I related to your post. Best of luck to you, hope u sort that shit out (no pun intended). <3 therapy works?

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  • Tommythecaty
    3 years ago

    🤭

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  • RoseIsabella
    3 years ago

    I assume your grandmother didn't have called ID.

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  • SwickDinging
    3 years ago

    This is a question for your psychiatrist.

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  • LloydAsher
    3 years ago

    Doesnt matter if they were a shit person. A grave is a grave and should be respected as such. Her legacy of being remembered as a horrible person by you is the insult to her charicter. It's way more tame than to shit on her grave which i find to be abhorrent behavior to such a high degree.

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    • justdippinginthecesspool
      3 years ago

      I'm surprised you're sentimental enough to care about respecting graves. You always came across to me as cold and pragmatic.

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      • LloydAsher
        3 years ago

        We all die, I want people to respect my grave even if I pissed them off when I was alive.

        Respecting graves is a good standard to have. You dont have to honor the dead but you got to have a minimum of respect for the dead.

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