Is it normal to cope with anxiety like this?
Hello I'm a highschooler who goes to a pretty "good" school(high average GPA and stuff like that) I just within the last month have become completely different. I am being pressured to play lacrosse which is stressing me out a lot but I feel like I'm coping with it weirdly. I have started to twist my hair which is a habit I lost when I was younger. I twist it into knots and then it breaks and falls out leaving me with bald spots. I'm making this post because just at my last tryout I was put on a team of all guys who are pretty new to the sport, and I had no way of proving myself to the coaches. When we got back to the locker room some freshman called me a pussy for quiting football the past year. I didn't want to start anything so I just walked away.when I got home my mother reminded me to not stay up late which really just made me snap. I just screamed at her for no reason then just kind of shut off. I went to twist my hair (which I do when I'm having anxiety), and she slapped my hand away to stop me . that caused me to go into a kind of autistic breakdown where I wanted to cry and just not have to think about anything. My father then came through the door, home from work, and I kinda just had to act like everything was alright. Now I'm just post up in my bathroom icing my leg and writing this. I don't know what to do and I feel like I'm damaging myself with stress. Any advice would be appreciated and the people on here are always really cool about stuff like anxiety.