Is it normal to constantly think and or plan out murders
Ok so I'm a pretty plain Jane type of woman. No one would ever suspect I held such thoughts and desires. I wear my mask perfectly.
Murder. It's too quick and simple... It's the drawn out suffering I will relish in. For an example, take a family infant and cut it up into smaller sizes and mail these 'gifts' to my vic. Watch them start to crumble as they slowly start to realize close loved ones being killed horrifically around them. I get off on watching their pain. Living a life of pure hell. Then, eventually, take them out-slowly. On to the next.
These desires and day dreams live together with my 'normal' self and my darkness. I've tried animals. Doesn't satisfy. In fact, it just fuels my anger for being human all the more. Disgusting creatures.
If it weren't for pure laziness I might actually act on it one day. It the spark ignites at the right time. Anyone else fantasize about this sort of thing? Three hots and a cot doesn't scare me.