Is it normal to constantly cringe at past events
I have a subconscious list of like 50 or so majorly embarrassing/cringy things that happened in my life that I continually look back at and feel really embarrassed about, and a subconscious list of like 10 things that happened recently and are only somewhat embarrassing.
These are things like saying something incredibly stupid in a conversation with someone I wanted to impress, having something personal of mine get leaked, or something as general as just hating my personality when I was younger.
If a cringy event is minor, it will be forgotten in a month or 2, but if it's majorly cringy, I'll remember it my entire life and it will be added to my subconscious list of majorly cringy events. I even remember cringy events from 3rd grade. The list goes back my whole life.
Every so often I'll hear or see something that reminds me of one of these events, and I have to stop for 1 or 2 seconds and take a deep breath. When I remember one of these cringy past events, I feel like crap for half an hour until I get distracted by something else and forget about it.
Is it normal?