Is it normal to consider using people to this extend for personal gain
To fully understand my question you first need to know a little bit about me.
I am a very competitive and ambitious in what I try to accomplish
I care a lot about my social image and I put a lot of thought into keeping it as high as possible. I want everybody to look up at me as much as possible. To have power and control over social structures. I assure any of you readers that I do not sound as much like a megalomaniac in real life. After all, who doesn't want to have power?
Here is my actual question.
I am about to start my second education to get a better diploma and all that good stuff.
It so happens that there is already a lady who attends the university I want to join and who has lately shown a lot of romantic interest in me. I am certain that she is not the kind of girl that I am looking for, her views on a perfect relationship differ too much from mine. But she is one of the most popular and best looking girls in that school. I have been entertaining the idea of getting into a relationship with her merely to benefit from her social stature. Which is surely higher than mine since I will be a new student. And as soon as I am on my feet, destroy hers. To make myself stand taller. I am not one to doubt my own judgment. But as Winston Churchill said: "To improve is to change, to perfect is to change often". I have done things like these before and have felt reasonable guilt as well. But for the first few days after I destroy someone's throne and knock them down to the bottom of the social ladder I feel as high and an amazingly satisfied feeling. It's hard to explain. I have had enough people trying to kick me down but I have always managed to win. I have not, however, ever met anyone who seemed to get as much of a kick out of it as me. Is this normal?