Is it normal to consider him my first?

Okay, before I lost my virginity, I was totally and completely into this really hot guy. He was tall, tan, tone,and very handsome. Well we started to mess around. He was the first guy I ever kissed, seen naked, touched, and let touch me and see me naked. I knew he wasn't a virgin but he didn't know I was. So when I told him he said he didn't want to be that guy, but we still did sexual activities. Well I finally just let a friend from college take my virginity. He ended up being really small and I didn't even feel it. . . A while later I told the other guy I wasn't a virgin anymore. Then later we ended up having sex. It hurt do bad with him. I've had sex with him the most since then and he is the only guy I want to have sex with. We aren't dating but I am very much in love with him.

So my question is: Is it normal to consider that guy my first instead of my "actual" first? Is it bad that when people ask me who was my first I really want to say one name when Technically its another name?