Is it normal to blow an interview on purpose?
I had an interview a couple days ago, which was set up by some advisors from the school I graduated from. They were pushing me quite hard and always confident that I could do great things. However, the job was very difficult, vague, and lacked direction. Starting out, I don't think I'd want a job where supervisors are difficult to reach and objectives are vague. However, I just want to live easily like everyone else and I no longer have the drive to challenge myself to do things for less respect, less money, and much more effort than most others in my situation do. I feel like I'm letting my advisors down because I respect them and they've always been great to me, but when I was in the interview I purposely planted seeds of doubt in the supervisor's mind as to whether I could do it. I know I could, but I just want to have a stress-free job where I can go home and forget about it at the end of the day. I've had an arduous journey through school and now I just want to live a life where the future doesn't cause me stress constantly, where I can focus on the now. I feel like a failure for wanting it easy. Does this make me a horrible person? Am I letting everyone down? Am I being lazy?