Is it normal to blackout on vodka and hurt someone you love so deeply

We drank a bottle of vodka and i blacked out. Apparently we got into a verbal fight that escalated into a physical fight, she says i even choked her for a moment.... i have very little memory of the night, just bits and pieces. Shes leaving me now, obviously. Love that girl more than anything. last time she was gone i tried to kill myself.... dunno how to handle any of this. I dont know if any of this is normal, or if i need help.... what should i do... i love her so much

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Based on 50 votes (18 yes)
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Comments ( 6 )
  • dom180

    You need to internalize what you did. Even if you don't remember it, it was very real and it sounds like she is right to leave (it also sounds like this isn't the first time you have done something like this). Let her go for her own good. It's the best thing for her.

    Take her leaving as a warning sign that you need help. You should go to therapy for your alcohol, violence and suicide issues. Tell a therapist what you just told us. It's possible to get yourself together.

    If you're getting drunk and trying to kill yourself now, stop.

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  • thegypsysailor

    How about a real easy solution for the future? Probably won't get this girl back, but you can be petty certain you won't do it again, if you stop drinking, right?

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  • Jeaneathean

    Get. Help. Now.

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  • lonelyslayer

    I plan t seek health. I told her to leave me, that im a bad person to be with but she refuses to leave me. I love her endlessly.

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  • Fall_leaves

    Was the last time she left you due to physical/verbal abuse aswell?

    I think you should get help and let her move on that's not a healthy situation and if you love her you won't allow her to be with you while you're like this. Do what's best for her and end the relationship and work on your issues.

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  • catsofharmony

    Yes it's normal you might want to see a hypnosis person thoe!

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