Is it normal to become reclusive after my many surgery and health pr

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There is no way to keep my story short to demonstrate why I am the way I am and where to start to say yes to life again.June 2000 1st back surgery Was told a simple 2 hour surgery woke up 12 hours later with titanium rods in my back. A old injury while serving in the US Army finally ended my productive busy fun life. 2 Knee surgeries, 1 neck surgery,Spinal disease Diagnosed,followed by 3 more back surgery's 2 almost died from infections after surgery. Loss of Good Blue cross insurance now medicare 15 doctors in 10 years ,oxycodone,ativan, effexor Depression Staying in My bedroom 95% of the time even pissing in a cut out milk jug. Have no faith in any doctors,cant afford a shrink, Doctors see me coming and I think they get scared and always send me somewhere else.I don't feel sorry for myself or complain to my wife and older sons I just don't give a shit about nothing anymore. I do stay busy on the net. Is this normal for a guy to go down hill and not have anyone to help me get healthy again? Its not like breaking your arm and you know in 3 month your cast comes off and your ok. So now I smoke cigarettes like 3 packs a day drink coffee and just wait to die and really am not scared? people try to lift me up But its like telling someone to put the horses in the barn and the barn is burnt down. Anyways thanks for reading

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  • wuddeva
    12 years ago

    I lost faith in the medical system after my surgery. Don't lose yourself in the distrust. The people that end up doctors are jaded assholes much of the time, but you can't let that stop you from living and seeking treatment. You have persevered through more than most of us can imagine; keep that as a reminder that you are exceptional enough to get through this. Keep strong, man. Don't punch your doctor, btw. It's a terrible idea. Getting care gets a lot harder if doctor-puncher is sticking out of your record.

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  • A_Man_With_A_Plan
    13 years ago

    If you say a prayer, does God respond? If so, what do you hear?

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  • kittyjibblets
    13 years ago

    this was very sad to read :(
    being depressed is awful especially when your life was so busy and fun filled before all of this happened. try to find something in your life that you want to live for like family and/or a hobby. i hope you can find some inner peace and happiness.
    i wish you the best and take care.

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  • twistedmama81
    13 years ago

    I sympathize with you, as I had a serious case of scoliosis and had surgery in January of '09...the pain of the scoliosis made me depressed...and now although it's straightened, it's depressing when I still have back pain after going through what I did. My surgery lasted 8 hours and I spent 11 days in the hospital because I developed pneumonia, had chest tubes and all that other not-fun stuff. Hang in there...and thank you for your service.

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  • heypesto
    13 years ago

    I'm sorry to hear this. I don't think you're genuinely happy with the situation, or you wouldn't have posted here. I don't think you really want to die. I think you should take small steps towards overcoming the agoraphobia; try leaving your room for 10 minutes at a time, then leaving the house for 10 minutes; then travelling a bit further afield if possible. Take your time. Speak to your family about it; they love you.

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  • McHammer
    13 years ago

    this is normal but it's not healthy you may have depression when ppl endure things like what u have it can happen and for someone who has suffered through an onset of depression and anxiety from many deaths in my family I can tell u it's not easy. what I did was I was sitting in my room and after crying for hours and wanting to die I strews thinking of all the fun I have had in the past at first I was more upset that I would never be like that again THEN I thought f@ck this! Im not gonna let this crap ruin my life so I made myself get out of the house and into situations that made me anxious and u know what? it took time but I'm so much better now. being in that mood clouds ur judgement. once u snap out of it you will be like how did I do that for so long ITS EXHAUSTING! so I hope a little of my story has helped you and you realise that you're happy times ahead are worth the effort and discomfort that you may feel till ur at the point of being happy again
    I wish you all the luck in the world with my whole heart and I mean that I hope you can recover as I did. just remember it's harder living the way you are now than it is when u turn it around so take any step you can!

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