Is it normal to become depressed?

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So... I've had depression when I was a little kid (early elementary school) and had been suicidal because of it. For the most part, I've gotten over it and have been enjoying life fairly often and usually pretty happy. But... I hate the perverted side of me and whenever it gets a little out of hand, I immediately start to regret it and I almost instantly go into a near-depressed state where nothing really matters anymore (save only a handful of things) and I don't really want to do anything, including eating, drinking water or any other fluids (not an alcoholic), going to the bathroom, etc. I'm usually like this for a couple days or afterwards. I basically just end up sleeping.

This has caused some issues with my girlfriend, who knows full well that this does happen (she's had to put up with me like this a couple times before this past year), and she gets a little upset because of it, especially when she's in the mood... This mostly happens when I start to ask her for something and she says that I'm starting to creep her out...

So... I'm wondering if this is normal or not...

P.S. I don't have any insurance or the money to get professional help, so don't even suggest it... because if I did, I'd have gone to them already for a couple issues I have...

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  • Ellenna
    8 years ago

    What do you mean by the perverted side of you? If you mean depression, that's not a perversion it's an illness and you do need to find some help for it.

    I guess from your comment that you have no insurance or money that you live in the usa? Not even any free mental health support groups? The ones in Australia are called "Grow" but I don't know if they exist in other countries.

    There are also websites and forums on the internet

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      I'm not referring to depression as a perversion. I mean being perverted in a sexual manner... Usually I'm able to simply ignore any urges I get... but sometimes I'm not able to and I start to pressure my girlfriend... and unless she yells at me or says something that triggers my protective/nurturing side... I end up keep pressuring her... and I almost always become depressed afterwards unless she was actually in the mood and does stuff with me... but it's when I start to freak her out and creep her out that I become really bothered and depressed by this stupid perverted/sexual side of me...

      Keep in mind that sometimes it's not so bad that I keep pressuring her. Like on the occasion that I do ask her, when it's not out of control, and she says no... I'll simply tell her okay and simply go on to read or do something else.

      I just wish there was a way to simply ignore it 100% of the time that I want to ignore it...

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      • Ellenna
        8 years ago

        Thanks for the explanation but I'm still confused regarding what this perversion is. If you mean wanting sex with your girlfriend that's not perverted. What is it you're pressuring her to do? Pressuring anyone about sex is not respectful but you don't say what it is that freaks or creeps her out.

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        • Anonymous Post Author
          8 years ago

          It's the constant pressuring that freaks/creeps her out. And I usually want to see her in different positions or for her to show me what positions she'd like to try (it's a long distance relationship). She knows that I don't record or anything. Hell... I've even let her see all of my files and programs before (using TeamViewer or Skype) to prove to her that I don't have any methods of recording. I don't ask her to let me see her crotch, because she's very shy about that.

          Sorry if I'm not properly answering... I'm trying to think of everything that could be resulting in this...

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          • Ellenna
            8 years ago

            Then stop pressuring her! It's not rocket science: if you keep pressuring someone to do something they don't want to do they will withdraw from you. Try a little empathy: wouldn't you react in exactly the same way if someone kept hassling you?

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            • Anonymous Post Author
              8 years ago

              I try to not pressure her... I try to not even ask her for anything except to get to see her smile or hear her voice when we're just going about our own things... I try to ignore any and all things sexual on my part while trying my best to satisfy hers...

              That's why I hate it when I can't really control myself... I hate hurting her... I honestly try my hardest to ignore my own urges or to distract myself from them...

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  • mysistersshadow
    8 years ago

    Doesn't sound normal what are these perverted thoughts?

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      Basically thinking of doing all kinds of different things with my girlfriend or making her do stuff in front of me...

      Usually I'm able to resist these kinds of thoughts and not act on them or anything... but there are times where they start to get out of hand and I start to pressure my girlfriend a little bit... It's only when she yells at me or tells me that I'm creeping/freaking her out that I snap back to my senses... and then I feel so horrible about what I had been doing that I start hating myself and start wishing that I had a means of removing a good portion of my urges/perverted side so that it'd be manageable for life...

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      • mysistersshadow
        8 years ago

        You didn't answer the question. What are these acts your referring to?

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        • Anonymous Post Author
          8 years ago

          Asking her to give me something like a strip tease, showing me some of the positions she'd like to try, helping me masturbate... things like that. I don't, however, ask her to let me see past her panties because she is very shy about that (long distance relationship).

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          • mysistersshadow
            8 years ago

            Ok so nothing really all that wild just not completely vanilla. I don't think you should beat your self up over these so called perversions they are pretty mild.

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