Is it normal to be very aware of my body language?
I don't talk one on one much, but when I do I notice every feeling and movement I make. I feel so agonizingly aware of my body language that it's irritating!
For instance, if someone I know spots me in the store and comes up to talk, I feel myself turning my body from them as much as possible, not looking them in the face, trying to not let them 'see' me. I try to pretend to be very preoccupied with my shopping, looking at products nearby so as to make it seem that I am busy and they should go away. I use it as a way to not let them look at me and avoid having to look at them. All I can think of is 'when will you leave?'.
Other times, I always catch myself keeping my arms folded, my body shifted in the seat away from people if possible, just things like that.
I thought body language was supposed to be a subconscious thing but the way it's been with me for the past several years has been a very conscious matter. It's like it's magnified x100 and it's a tool I use consciously.
IIN?