Is it normal to be traumatized just by religion itself?
I had a kind of fucked up religious background. We were paranoid, reclusive fundamentalists. After being "saved," I still wasn't treated like a Christian. My parents constantly pressured me to "make sure" that I was really saved, and almost everything I did was like a red flag to them that I was degenerate.
Sometimes I was actually threatened with God's judgment. It seemed better to have never been born. Just existing seemed risky. I learned to adopt a non-human identity just to cope with this paradigm.
Is it normal for someone to have PTSD from that? Most people don't take their religion that seriously, even if it teaches eternal damnation. What made me different? Is this normal? Is there something else causing my anxiety, and this is just an excuse?