Is it normal to be this way? :(

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I find life's just too hard for me to live. I think that i am correct and better than others, that i know more than others and i'm not appreciated by others.. but then i get other thoughts contradicting me and telling me that i'm the exact opposite.
I was told by a psycologist that i have social phobia, but i've only had it for two years. Before that i was just normal, out enjoying life with my friends but now i'm lonely, detatched and miserable. I'm trying to get on with my life and it's stopping me. I'm not good at talking to people, i feel like everyone is against me and anytime i'm sitting with someone i feel that they're judging me and analyzing my every move. And because of all this, i start to think that i don't want to relate to others or be involved with them in anyway because i'm better than them all, i'd rather stay at home in my element getting stoned all the time. I hate the way i am and it's taking over my entire life. I blame myself for the way i act. I can't go on living this way anymore and i'm always contemplating whether or not i should end my life.
I would appreciate others to give me advice and their views as can't see past my own.

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  • RCSan
    13 years ago

    @ xinooo: I don't think that kind of comment would help.

    @ Question: Perhaps saying you think you're better doesn't really cover it. Especially if you have contradicting thoughts. Rather you seem to judge others and perhaps feel like you could do better or know better. You ever notice adults or elders do this too? Saying they know more from experience and what not? I think it's normal to judge others, we all do in some way whether by looks or actions. But not everyone is out to get you, know that.

    I wouldn't suggest ending your own life. Believe it or not others you know would NOT want that at ALL, they'd miss you! D: It's also a drastic decision, I always say to myself "No day lasts forever". Try to keep that in your mind it always cheers me up. Try experimenting to find things that make you happy and find a good friend that's patient and energetic to perk you up too! :] Life doesn't have to be sad or depressing it's fun too and we live it for those great moments. Keep going and strive for your own happiness! Hope that helps :]

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    Iknow that this situtation is hard for you, but when the going gets tough, don't end it. This is the crazy ride called life. It can be a bitch sometimes but u have got to keep through. Meet new people. Go talk to people you haven't met yet and maybe you can become friends in the future. Trust me, everything will work out. Just don't hurt yourself.

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  • luisa17
    13 years ago

    i seriously don't think i have high self esteem, like i said these thoughts i have about being better than others are always contradicted. I do smoke a lot of cannabis and have done for a few years, but that's my way of coping and as sad as it sounds, it's what i'm totally committed to. i'm lonely because i withdrew myself, nobody left me. ah well, i guess i should just sort this out on my own instead of asking for help from people who don't know me and don't really know my exact situation... :)

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  • xino00
    13 years ago

    this is what we call a High Self Esteem! Someone who thinks of themselves as highly over others, who thinks they are always right and others are wrong.

    people like this (you) are hard to deal with in life because you always think you are better than others and always right.

    It's like the old saying
    "the customer is always right".

    Look at you now, you are lonely like you said, because people left you with the way you act.

    I suggest you stop having a high ego and see wtf is wrong with you!

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  • Jack83
    13 years ago

    I feel the same way but mine doesn't sound as bad as yours. It's just hard for me to make friends because I feel like everyone's judging me and I look stupid. Does it have anything to do with getting high? I've only just started to smoke so maybe it's correlated.

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  • Oneofthoseguys
    13 years ago

    Haha I have that feeling also, but I mostly just ward it off with jokes nobody laughs about.....

    If you think you're better, and if you can prove that then it's a fact, done.

    Most of the time people check every move because they're thinking you're doing the same ;)

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  • Heh?
    13 years ago

    Drugs are bad for you. Suicide is not the answer either.

    Staying physically and mentally active will help you feel more confident and stable. So, go out and try something new, like rock climbing, surfing or serial stalking.

    If you try serial stalking, you must return to ask if it is normal.

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