Is it normal to be this pathetic?

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I think its about time to admit im a chronic liar. I dont even lie about things that matter. I say small things such as ive seen a movie i havent, or tell other people's stories as my own, and worst of all i keep things from my boyfriend. I keep trying to convince myself that im not the problem in our relationship, but im the reason why fights surface. I cant leave my past alone. I cant withstand temptation of flirting, and i took it too far the other night. I cant play the victim anymore. I caused heartache and i dont have the balls to tell him exactly what happened. I dont want four years of my life thrown away, I dont want to live my life without him. But still, if i really loved him i wouldnt be such a fucking bitch. Do i love him? or am I lying to myself? im so pathetic.

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  • [Old Memory]
    11 years ago

    Sure you can love him even though you're not treating him right, but it doesn't sound like you love yourself very much.

    Sounds like it's time to face the music and have a long talk with him about how you are feeling.

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  • CheyChey
    11 years ago

    Two words. you're human. We all make mistakes but what's important is to acknowledge these mistakes, at least you're not in denial. Take the steps to rectify your mistakes, you will mess up & you will dust yourself off & keep at it. Don't beat yourself up about it, move on.

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  • Charle44
    11 years ago

    Well, probably you do love him but right now you love drama even more. It doesn't sound like you're in the right shape to be in a relationship for a while.

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  • NeuroNeptunian
    11 years ago

    Agreed with Squirrel Whisperer.

    You need to tell him what's up and commit to counseling or some other way of solving your problem. But you know that you have a problem and knowing is half the battle!

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