Is it normal to be this depressed about being stupid?
I'm a pretty stupid guy, enough that I've diagnosed myself as mildly retarded. Not even joking. You probably don't think so because I'm using a computer but that's about the best I can do. I'm just so stupid. You see people who are stupid and it's sometimes because they're lazy, but I'm not like that because I try and I try to no avail.
I look around at people and it's as if they know things 100 times more than me. People seem to pick up things that I find really difficult. Not only that but it feels like my head is blocked and it's hard to think or say anything intelligent. Sure I could learn about things to build my knowledge, but that's all I can do, so what's the point of trying if I'm still going to be stupid?
I feel like a failure in everything and it depresses me to the point of thinking about suicide. Sounds weak but put yourself in my shoes. I'm sure you're pretty smart whoever you are, or a smartass as there are quite a few on this site it seems. That must give you a lot of self-confidence knowing you're smart. Well imagine not being smart at all, if that's gone, then so is your confidence and self-esteem. That's how it is for me.
Not only am I stupid but it 's eating me up inside. I know I can't actually get smart, but is there some chance to just rid of all these bad feelings? I'd like to be stupid and happy, not stupid and miserable.