Is it normal to be this apathetic?
My mom, doctor, therapist, and everyone on yahoo and is it normal say I'm depressed. But I really don't think so. I don't know how to explain to people what I'm feeling. I just don't feel or care about anything. I don't feel that in a depressed way, just in a purely apathetic way. Because I don't think anything matters. I really don't feel depressed at all. I just feel that I have a logical view on the world, one where I'm looking at the big picture while everyone else spends their whole damn lives working and trying so hard to find "happiness" and to be successful and have money and the perfect family. But I understand that we are all going to die someday (which is totally cool with me lol) so nothing we do in life matters. Nothing. Pain, happiness, none of it matters because it all ends eventually. I just think that everybody is so petty with trying to be the best and trying to be happy. I'm so content with where I am and not caring about anything or anyone. I don't really have favorite things (like food, tv shows, etc.) and I don't really care about my friends and family at all. My therapist says that I have this level of apathy towards everything that is unlike anything he has ever seen before. And I am laughing as I type this because I think it's so stupid how people say I'm depressed, and the doctor keeps throwing anti-depressants at me, and when they don't do anything then she just ups the dose. But why? I honestly do not see why someone would want to be happy? I don't see the appeal? I am completely content with where I am at this emotionless state. I feel that it gives me the most logical view on life. I'm not depressed or happy. I'm nothing. Do you think I'm depressed? Is this normal?