Is it normal to be this antisocial?
Is it normal to be so antisocial, that I honestly would rather disappear? I am a 30 year old female. I consider myself to be fairly intelligent, and even though I don't feel it most of the time I know that I am a pretty girl but I have always been anxious in social situations.I got mixed up and went from being a drug user to a pretty high up drug dealer for the past 3 years, I made more money than I ever thought but recently I was informed I had two choices quit or stay and probably go to prison for my choices. I quit. So now I am broke and feeling pretty down about everything. I have gone to college and had amazing jobs in the past so I don't know why I hate myself so much these days. I don't want to talk to anyone I never answer my phone. I'm just really depressed. I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder when I was 15 so maybe this is another episode? I've had a few since then. Will someone help me and tell me if this is normal?