Is it normal to be such an inhuman bitch?

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Seriously I feel nothing for anyone or anything!
I don't have any kind of reaction to whatever I encounter in my daily life. I just pretend in order to fit in. I pretend to be happy when I assume that i should be happy; I pretend to be sad when a friend or a family member is suffering for example, but in reality, i don't feel anything for either my friends or my family! Yes, i try to be there for them and everything, but I don't really care if they are happy or sad! I really feel like an ungrateful bitch for this!
I don't even laugh or cry anymore. Nothing scares me or comfort me. I don't care if i die or live; i don't care about the future or even the present.
This freaks me out! I don't know when or why I turned out to such a cruel emotionless person!
I don't want to be like this, so please no hateful comments!
Just tell me if you think it's normal or not, and any advice is appreciated.

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flutterhigh

11 years ago | pl

Mom?

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[Old Memory]

11 years ago

"I really feel like an ungrateful bitch for this!".
That line shows you have some form of emotion to you, that you feel guilty to an extent.

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  11 years ago
  
  Yes, guilt is probably the only emotion that Im still able to feel. It makes me feel human once in a while!
  
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bigguy2010

11 years ago

The way you describe yourself... you sound like my ex-wife.

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  lol
  
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cheeseman12

11 years ago

In that post I can see two emotions coming out - guilt and despair - and there are definitely more buried in there somewhere.

Also, you should never pretend to feel because that just makes your situation even worse. I'm no expert so I could just be talking a load of shit here, but perhaps you forming ideas of what you "should" feel at what severity (e.g your not gonna burst into tears if you can't find your phone) has partially caused this or made it worse at the very least.

If I were you, I would visit a counsellor or your GP who can refer you to a psychiatrist/psychologist

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Aine

11 years ago

Stop pretending and then you can appreciate and recognize your emotions whenever you have them. It doesn't seem like you're living your own life and doing things that make you feel, whether it be happy, scared, excited, etc. So you should start by stop pretending.

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AssBurgers

11 years ago

Dexter Morgan has the same traits as you, just sayin'

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pyt_1185

11 years ago

I did that before, got so tired of being hurt by other people, that I hardened my heart and prayed to God for me not to feel pain. Then I became "flat", no affect. I had to pretend to have emotion just like you!! Just pray for God to soften your heart ,(that is if you want to feel emotion). But it could lead to some types of psychiatric disorder or depression. Sound like your mind knows whats right but your body can't follow. So try to fix it before your brain gets that way too and you really become emotionless! Hope it works out for you.

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warren4aj

11 years ago

have you ever seen the TV show "Dexter" ???

www.sho.com/sho/dexter/home

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dalmationUntoyourSoul

11 years ago

maybe spend more time alone and be honest with yourself, instead of doing things out of obligation. wearing a mask around people could be what led you here in the first place.

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Alarid

11 years ago

Talk to a doctor. Problem solved.

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Captain_Kegstand

11 years ago

Just a shot in the dark, do you happen to be on any meds? I'm not trying to be a jerk, but seriously asking. My mom went on lithium some years back before she starting drinking (i love you mommy lolz) and she became just like you. She had absolutely no emotion, happy or sad, even when her dad died she just sat there watching the clock!

If not meds (like I said just a shot in the dark) then you might want to talk to a psychiatrist, there could be a serious reason for this, or it could be just your personality. The fact that you made this post means you care more than you think you do. If you cared nothing for others, why would you "try and be there for them and everything"?

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  11 years ago
  
  No, I'm not on any meds, and unfortunately i can't afford a visit to a Psychiatrist.
  
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  - Captain_Kegstand
    
    11 years ago
    
    Well then, like I said, it could be just part of your personality! I am a little closed off to emotional response myself although I always do what is appropriate in the situation. I don't know if that means I don't care, or if me acting appropriately means that I do care, I just don't recognize it.
    
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howaminotmyself

11 years ago

You don't have to enjoy something just because you think others want you to. It makes you fake and people can see right through that. And you gain nothing, but bitterness and resentment. You are wasting a lot of energy pretending to be something you aren't, so stop that.

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Avant-Garde

11 years ago

I can be like this but to an extent. I feel and express emotions for myself, but not always for others. I often and unintentionally come off as a Arctic bitch.

The fact that you feel guilty and upset about this shows that you do have emotions.
It could be a disorder or it could just be your personality.

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  11 years ago
  
  I seriously hope that it's some sort of disorder rather than my real personality!
  
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  - dalmationUntoyourSoul
    
    11 years ago
    
    maybe you were too nice and gave too much of yourself and had to turn into a hard bitch to protect yourself. it's happened to me before, but usually not for too long. it did last about two years once, and although i learned from it i don't want to go back there. i hope you can figure out when this happened and the source of your trouble. i really doubt this is your real personality. i did still care about plants and animals though. maybe that will help you. there might be something you still care about and are overlooking, that could help you find a way out of your troubles. i feel for you because i was there for too long so be careful, once you stop feeling the guilt you might be in for a long life of not living
    
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suckonthis9

11 years ago

You might be suffering from a neurological condition called narcissistic personality disorder. If this condition is troubling you, you should see a Doctor of Psychiatry.

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  11 years ago
  
  I agree with Tommythecat, not a narcissist.
  
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  - suckonthis9
    
    11 years ago
    
    Probably still some type of related psychiatric disorder, unless it's a fictitious post. That's why you should seek professional help, sometimes more than one because some are quacks.
    
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    - flutterhigh
      
      11 years ago
      
      None of these symptoms have much to do with narcissistic personality disorder, or any related complexes. This type of emotional numbness and total anhedonia usually points to depression, with a possibility of something like antisocial or schizoid personality disorder. But like ItDuz mentioned above, his/her guilt implies a level of emotional awareness that most antisocial/schizoid people wouldn't have, so I'd guess depression.
      
      That being said, it's definitely a good idea to seek professional help as opposed to asking/searching online.
      
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      - Anonymous Post Author
        
        11 years ago
        
        I always suspected that it might be a depression. I don't have suicidal thoughts though. It's just that I don't give a damn about anything or anyone including myself.
        
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        nohatingplz
        
        11 years ago
        
        I've been depressed and even suicidal off and on throughout my life. I always thought that the most dangerous times were the times when the feelings went completely away. Time to be selfish, flutterhigh, and take care of yourself whether you can afford it or not. Submerged anger and emotion can kill a person just like the iceberg took down the Titanic. You might need therapy not because you are sick, but because you need to get it out and have some help dealing with those feelings you are suppressing. Best wishes to you.
        
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      - NeuroNeptunian
        
        11 years ago
        
        This.
        
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    - dalmationUntoyourSoul
      
      11 years ago
      
      psychiatric disorders are fictitious.
      
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      - suckonthis9
        
        11 years ago
        
        I respectfully disagree, some people have physical abnormalities in their brain that causes some psychiatric disorders, others might have a hormonal (chemical or genetic) abnormality that sometimes causes a psychiatric disorder and still others might develop a psychiatric disorder due to environmental factors, such as some diseases and even an individual's social condition. It has been known for quite some time that infants and children that do not receive love and affection, will develop numerous psychiatric disorders.
        
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        dalmationUntoyourSoul
        
        11 years ago
        
        you gotta work with what you have. some people are fated to succumb to their psychological troubles. others quit labeling themselves as sick, stop reading lists of symptoms, stop taking the pills, use positive affirmation and herbal remedies. the power of suggestion and manifestation are significant. some societies place value on people that perceive what can't be known by the five senses alone, others lock them up and it makes them worse.
        
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- [Old Memory]
  
  11 years ago
  
  Not a narc, they care greatly if they live or die, and they have epic reactions to things they encounter in life. They also hate to show weakness like this person is doing. And they certainly do care about the future and the present as it's all about them!
  
  This sounds like a "shallow affect" certainly, but not a narc.
  
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  - Captain_Kegstand
    
    11 years ago
    
    Getting more creative with the nostril delivery... I like it!
    
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