Is it normal to be such a pussy

I'm such a pussy. I don't get angry I get upset, I let stupid things like words get to me. I'm not tough by any means, when my friends wrestle or shoot each other with rubber bullets or beat on each other I don't think it's fun, it hurts, how can pain be fun? If I'm scared enough I'll want to cry, and I have no tolerance for pain, I was practically held down for my stupid tattoos that I didn't even want to begin with.

I live in a trailer park with my mom and he boyfriends have always told her that I was a bitch. I'm a total mamas boy but I'm too much of a pussy to stand up to the hillbilly alcoholic assholes she dates. I hate hunting, I hate fishing, I don't care too much for guns and mudding. I'm turning 19 and I got a bunch of scholarships for a university up north, so now everyone thinks I'm even more of a pussy because I want to go to the suburbs.

I look like I'd be tough and mouthy, so people want to pick fights with me, but really I'm just a bitch.
I'm not too smart, sorry if my grammar sucks