Is it normal to be stuck on a relationshp that never started?
Im a 29 yr old male..when I was 14 an older frnd of my cousn gave me a love letter to deliver to one gal from my school. Since my job was simple it ddnt bother me much. It turnd out that I had more in store by fate i gues than i cld imagine. Ths gal thought i was tryna hit on her, I explaind my mission...to whch sh responded so badly tht i felt an obligation to calm her down..ths calmng led to much unexpectd series of events..In brief we became cloz then I fell in love with ths gal...I never actualy made my plans to make her my galfrnd, clear to her, but I cld tel sh felt somethn for me too. I gues i was too nervous to tel her...th moment i summedup courage to do so sh moved out of our neigbhood...Iv bn in countles relationshps with a lot ladies..very beautful ladies i must say...wel that gal wasnt tht much good lookn...Problem is I cant forget about her...sh was supoz to b my first galfrnd and I feel tht all my relationshps are fake coz i started out wrongly...infact I tell all ladies i meet that i dont have a first galfrnd..bcos I feel tht place is not yet filld..and only her cld have filld it...Is ths normal???