Is it normal to be so lonely?
I was sitting in a cafe, having my delicious coffee and a cigarette.. Surrounded by people.. And all of them were looking weirdly at me.. At first I thought it was because of the cigarette thing giving the fact that I live in the middle hell.. Sorry I meant middle east and women who smoke are frowned upon.. But then I noticed that there were other females who were smoking.. And thoughts were rushing through my mind.. Maybe my hair looks funny, or maybe they think oh what a slut.. But no my hair looked fine and I was wearing decent cloths.. So why are they staring.. I then realized that they were surprised by the idea of a woman sitting all by herself in cafe without any company.. I tried to ignore but their eyes kept burning me.. So I asked for the bill and left quickly.. I felt sorry for myself that night and I cried and cried till my pillow was soaked.. I woke up the next morning with panda eyes.. Am I being too sensitive here or should I just shut up and stop making posts about how pathetic my life is when people in the neighboring countries are dying everyday ?