Is it normal to be so lazy at work?
I'm only mid-twenties working IT support/software engineering and can't motivate myself to work each day. I pump myself each day exercising, organizing, scheduling, cleaning, and designing efficient ways to handle jobs.
The office is dirty and cluttered, jobs are backed up, and the customers suck. Working remotely there is no human contact except by phone which is bullshit since I'm very sociable and easy to talk to. There is no where to go to take a walk or hang out/relax because the place is such a mess and we are next to a main road with only a tiny parking lot to stare at the bit of real light and fresh air I get. We have a mini fridge, coffee maker, and a microwave which is all crap to store or prep food in... and I only get to eat at my desk. Fucking emails, text messages, and bullshit all day long with NO CONCLUSION.
My boss has no direction for the company and with that I show up late, don't give a fuck, feel stress 90% of the time I go to work. And yet I feel 100% responsible to pull my own weight but I feel as though the weight I carry requires more people. More people in the same direction. My co-worker is a burn out and we don't talk anymore.... 40 hours a week if I even go in.
I feel trapped very very trapped. I have a college degree with no debt and my boss helped me recover from my problem drinking too much. So in a sense feel in debt. Yet he doesn't want to progress his life/the company to be something more. Fucking hate my job.
Is it my job or am I externalizing my problems?