Is it normal to be so angry and jealous with my friend for this!

So I've been best friends with my next door neighbor since we were 3. We have always been two completely different people but always gotten along. I'm shy, quite, laid back and don't trust new people very easy. She is wild, crazy thinks everybody she meets are great people when there not ( drug dealers ,kids who cause trouble that kind of stuff. We live in a not so great neighborhood so use your imagination ) Anyway she always does the stupid stuff that could get here in trouble,parties and drinks and nothing bad every happens. She's not real world smart example she thinks the titanic sank in Lake Huron . But why I'm angry and jealous is she got in to a college out of state and I'm staying close to how to work for now no school just yet. I've always played the safe route go ahead call me chicken what even I don't care. But she's always been crazy and wild and is moving on with her life and I feel like I'm going to go nowhere even though I've made better choices with certain things. She is lucky that everything has gone here way. I've had a little harder time with things I have a social anxiety issue that I'm overcoming. But what I'm asking is is it normal to be angry and jealous with her that she's moving on in this world when she has no clue how it works. Is it normal to feel left behind and everything you do is not good enough. Sorry my post is long I guess I just needed to vent a little. She's my only close friend anymore because I lost a lot with my anxiety issue. I'm not mad at her or anything I just hate that things are so easy for her even though she makes bad Decisions and never has any consciousness for them. Does anybody else have or had a situation like this your story would be great. I don't really have a lot of other people to ask about this.