Is it normal to be sexuallly attracted to any boy even if they're gay?
I'm 18. I'm single. I've only ever been kissed a handful of times and I'm a virgin. I was a very sheltered kid (raised by my grand parrents) and never got to have "friends" till this past school year.Of course I dated behind their backs but I never actually "dated". I'm not that beautiful and half the time it was a joke. I started my rebellion at a young age.. 9. Anyways.. after a few jokes and the sweetheart who mooved, I decded Dating wasn't for me. Most men in my life are crule so I'm afraid to be along with a guy that I don't know well enough, never know what will happen.. I have been sexually abused by my mom's boyfriend a few years ago and I couldn't fight him off. I fell ion love with my romance novels, the men there couldn't hurt me.. well this year when I got myself some friends I realised how sheltered I was. Well my friends are gay. All 5 boys I am with everyday of my life are gay. Some are dating eachother, and there is one that I am not really attracted too but sometimes he hugs me or grabs my hips, cute little things that make me sexually attracted to him. I know he is gay and nothing would ever happen, and I don't "like" him.. I like what he does.. Is this normal? To be attrated to a Gay man, for the way he hlds me? Am I just desperate for love? (my appoligies for this being all over the place, but I felt as though some history was needed)