Is it normal to be scared of clowns and then be one?
I'm really obsessed with clowns, I really want to be one. I always try to be a happier person, it doesn't help. I always think of myself as a clown. Thats all i want to be when i grow up. The Joker is my inspiration.
But, I am a loner, i have no friends, i'm not happy, and i'm not funny. But my darker side of me is a clown, He's called Jekor. He hates everyone, He is rage. i try not to let him out though, i dont want anyone getting hurt. i often talk to him and my Joker posters, I've already writin a song about him,
I'm inspired by clowns
I'm terrified of clowns
yet i want to be one, I know i'm a freak,
But i need help, I want help