Is it normal to be sad to see sexy underwears in the trash ?

Since at least 20 years now, I feel saddened to see any ''pretty'' things going in the trash, but mostly for women's underwears or sexy women's pictures from flyers/magazines.

The next part will be creepy, so don't consider this part in the vote since I know this is not normal at all haha

For me this turned into a fetish when I was about 14 years old. I liked to toss sexy underwears flyers in the kitchen trash can and this turned me on to see the nice and sexy pictures going to one of the worst possible place on earth and getting slowly covered by kitchen waste that makes them impossible anymore to save since paper can't be washed.

And only few years ago, I started to be turned on by seeing my ex girlfriend abandoned clothes (mostly for underwears, but any clothes too) in the kitchen trash can. I started to save them when they were completely convered with trash so my girlfriend couln't notice I took them out. And then when the garbage truck pass, it feel so great to know I saved them from being packed with the nasty garbage and end up being burried for years and slowly decomposing. I obviously manualy pre wash them and then wash them 2x in the washing machine to make sure to remove all possible bacteria from the trash.

And then when I left her (nothing to do with the fetish), I missed saving clothes from the trash. Since I know there's only 3 women's living in the appartment complex where I live, I started taking some bags from the shared outside trash can at night. I wouldn't take any bags left in other trash cans, but at least that one, I know the women's who might toss clothes are cute and into a serious relationship that minimize the chance of finding clotches from girls with STD, bedbugs or even a girl that is too young since I know they're about my age and wouldn't like to wonder if the panties I found belonged to a teenager :/

I know I soon won't be able anymore to take anything there since they're about to finish building another complex right next to where the trash cans are, and it will be way too risky, even at night to get cought taking bags from there. But I already found really sexy underwears there. I don't feel that bad for them since first, they tossed them so it's not stealing anything even if of course they wouln't agree to know that haha but there's no law against finding and keeping stuff that was thrown in the trash. If they really don't want anyone to keep them, they could cut them, or place them with the cat litter or something super nasty that would also remove any personal smell, just like we supposed to cut personal infos before tossing papers. And anyway it's almost like recycling since their clothes get a second life :P But the main reason why I don't feel bad is that they're all also tossing really good condition clothes that could be donated since we also live in one of the poorest city of our country... I personaly judge them for that, once I even donated some that still had price tags and that were into a separate bag without kitchen/bathroom trash around but yes I washed them 2x before ;)

So anyway, my question is not about if my fetish is normal or not, is about to know if I'm the only one to be saddened a little bit (of course for myself is too much) to see sexy things underwears or nice pictures going in the kitchen trash with all the stinky food waste and other nasty things go ? And as for the underwears, anwser like if it was your partner undies in your kitchen trash can and not like a random undies in a public washroom where it's gross even for me :P

And as a second question, what would you do if you find out your partner have a fetish that consist to see nice things going in the trash and to see women's discarding anything/taking out the trash ? You would dump right away or you might consider being able to live with that and even maybe try to be part of the fetish ? No matter your awnsers, I don't think I will ever tell anyone in real life about it, but just curious. I would like to know it's possible to remove a fetish, but I already read a lot about it, and it doesn't seem possible, so I can only try to live with it and try to control it by for exemple resisting to take my neighbours trash :P