Is it normal to be obsessed with suicide?

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I would like to say this isn't recent. I had been thinking about this for over 25 years, so no need to reach out for help.

I once suffered with the thoughts but never went through with them. The thoughts themselves felt as if they were going to break something inside me. Videos of suicide, books on suicide, different sorts of ways and discussions about suicide on hidden forums of how to do it.

In time the pain numbed, the idea seemed less urgent but less scary. I guess in a way like accepting life as a dying person could accept death.

I got a job cleaning up after suicides, I tailored my retirement from what I witnessed.

I'm not sure I'll ever understand those that can't understand this. To me it feels the closest thing to free will. Other than mental illness, I believe a person's history and present can accurately predict their future.

So it feels right to be on right side of dying by choice as humanely as possible doctor assisted.

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  • DADNSCAL
    3 years ago

    Not uncommon, but not normal. Please find someone to talk out your problem before you act on it.

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  • YE
    3 years ago

    For a long time I was obsessed with reading stories and articles about Anne Sexton's life.

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  • Somenormie
    3 years ago

    Get professional help, suicide isn't something to obsses about.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      3 years ago

      This question wasn't a joke.

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      • Jamie_Sulky
        3 years ago

        No ones saying its a joke man, were seriously worried. Please please get help. I mean it. Dm me if you want to.

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      • Somenormie
        3 years ago

        What I'm trying to say is you shouldn't obsess about it. I'm sorry if I've misread the thing.

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      • Somenormie
        3 years ago

        I am wishing you luck that you get the appropriate help you need and hoping that you live a good life.

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  • my_life_my_way
    3 years ago

    I have never once been anywhere near suicidal. If you’re unhappy with your life, you have plenty of time and opportunity to change it. It shouldn’t get to the point of killing yourself.

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  • Jamie_Sulky
    3 years ago

    I honestly relate. When I used to be really depressed, which was really middleschool in it entirety, I had a lot of thoughts, like consistently. I'd be in a train and imagined it crashing, id be on like the 7th floor and think about jumping, I would even almost ump as a joke to my friends, because I honestly didn't care if I slipped up and fell.

    But I never acted on it, thankfully, and I have no moved past that part of my life. I'm much healthier now, and If I had really acted out on my thoughts I wouldn't have had the chance to recover. Please reach out, i mean it. I know you've heard this a lot but i'm being fucking serious reach out. You have to believe me on this, people want you to live, including me.

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    • Somenormie
      3 years ago

      I too obsessed about it even though I still somewhat hate myself for having old self harm scars on my arm.

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