Is it normal to be obsessed with rough anal sex?
I'm 19, a guy. The second time I ever had sex was with a girlfriend who was quite open about sex and wanted to experiment( We both were virgins for our first time). We were extremely drunk and high[cross] ( and I mean EXTREMELY), and the idea of anal sex came up. Neither of us had any idea what to do it properly (lube/anal foreplay/etc.) so I just went for it, tbh like i'd seen in porn., which I deem was quite roughly. At the time, I'm guessing since she was drunk, she didn't ask me to stop or anything, however, the next day she told me that it was hurting alot.
Ever since that incident I have been obsessed with anal, and not just anal but rather rough anal. I even broke up with a girl because she wouldn't let me do anal. So much so, that I dont even enjoy normal vaginal sex AT ALL, and every time I have sex I have it in my head to somehow convince the girl to have rough anal.
Any advice on how to stop this obsession? Because, I doubt I'll find a girl willing to let me have rough anal.