Is it normal to be obsessed with crying?

My entire life, I have always had this really weird obsession. I am obsessed with crying. I don't know why, but I just love it when other people cry, especially pretty girls. A lot of the time, I will be fine about it, but sometimes, I will be obsessed with it, daydreaming about it, watching movie scenes with people crying, even searching for it on youtube! I call this binging. I literally meet someone new, I automatically think of them crying. Immediately, no thoughts given about it. I have never told anybody about this, it's always just been there. Does anybody else do this? Is this normal?