Is it normal to be jealous of white people as a muslim?

You weren't "born muslim", your parents and their religion made you into one: you can unmake that if you really want to, not easy I know, but it's not inevitable that you remain in a religion you didn't choose and which make so unhappy.

I'll bet there are websites and support networks for former muslims: I hope you can find them and free yourself

Islam is a filthy religion.

Some of the “prophet” Muhammad’s crimes include: mass beheadings, jihad against the Jews for declining Muhammad’s attempt to convert them, taking women as slaves, rape, pedophilia, robbing caravans, ordering assassinations.

At least you're in Europe, where you don't get stoned for leaving. My father once conversed with some Muslims who claimed they'd kill their children if they didn't follow Islam.
Surely if you're old enough you can start living independently? I'd try moving to a different European country, where you can truly drop your act once and for all.
And, don't let your bad experiences turn you into a gypsysailor ('Daaaym religion be much evil and such bad bcos i dont layk it') - just saying.

I don't blame you. Maybe you can leave, escape to some place far away and leave Islam behind? You deserve better than what the false prophet offers!

Perhaps if you do leave your faith, in time your family will accept you. However, I think it is very important that you remember that this is YOUR life we are talking about. Your one and ONLY guaranteed shot at a life, and you should not live it for anyone else. Your parents and friends have chosen a path that suits them, but obviously not you. Unless you want to be on your death bed regretting all the things you didn't do in life, you need to make a decision.
Good luck with it.

You do know that being white and being Muslim aren't mutually exclusive? Many Muslims are white, and many Middle Easterners are non-Muslims. And also, most Middle Easterners are technically white.

Muslim - follower of a set of ideas, namely religion.
White people - race.

You know there are white muslims as well, right?

But yeah, unless people learn to outgrow their religiosity their progress will be impeded, both on an individual and on a collective, social level.

I could have sworn Islam was a religion and not a race... but okay.

I understand it is very hard to live in a way that does not make you happy... Some religions are more open than yours, and allow those things, that I consider a way of living, but never into the extremes.
If you like a lot your muslim family and friends, then I guess it will be very hard for you to go against the principles of your religion.
If you drink alcohol or get intimate with someone will you be consider a not-muslim?

I am from a east european country too

Thanks. I think more and more young ''muslims'' will start to realize that their religion is obsolete, a thing of the past and that it isn't in line with the modern world. Oh and just consider for a moment the sheer idiocy. How can you live in a western country, surrounded by so many unholy/sinful things, while stubbornly trying to stick to your ideology ? Merely living in a non-muslim country should be considered a sin. On top of that, Islamic tradition teaches you to think lowly of non-muslims (''kuffar''), while these ''kuffar'' are the ones that give you education, excellent healthcare, wealth, technology etc.

I am so sorry you are feeling like this. I was brought up in a Christian home, and although you probably think all Americans are wild and free, many kinds of Christians are almost as restrained as Muslims. I tried to blend in and tried to do everything to get God to communicate with me and help me, but my supposedly Christian husband wouldn't go to church with me, and we didn't have kids. I could not get comfortable with the Christians and my husband was not careful with money and I finally divorced him after my attention turned to a cute boy. I finally had fun for about 4 years. My current boyfriend is not a Christian. The whole world is going to hell in a handbasket and I think it is ending, so if the Christians are right, it is not good for me. I heard a Christian prophet say that a flood was coming that would cover Florida and the state I live in too and stop at the mountains. God hates us that much because we allow gay marriage, according to the Christians. It is so sad to me if there is a God and he hates his creations for not understanding what he wanted us to do or how to do it. There are so many evil, greedy people trying to destroy the common people that we are just fighting to survive, and now God hates us too.

Why would you be jealous of the culture that literally did EVERY SINGLE THING of importance or consequence in the last 1,000 years? Oh wait, cause we are superior. Totally normal to be jelly bro.

Don't hate yourself for what your culture did, the present and future are up to you! Live as you like as long as you hurt nobody.
I have a friend who has self loathing over his Arabic-German roots but he is learning to let it go and just be himself .

I don't think that happiness are connected to being non-muslim or none religious person or having limits in life, happiness are connected to being yourself whoever you are, being comfortable of what you chose to be.
You are now spreading this wrong thought about Muslims not being happy because they don't drink and etc, if you are not happy because of that Islamic lifestyle then simply don't follow it and follow whatever you want. There are people who drink and party, some of them are happy and some of them are not, it's the same case in Islam. I live in a European country and I'm having as much fun as the other non-muslims fellows.

"I 'm not even a muslim , really . I just fake being one , so I don ' t get disowned by my parents. Besides , I 'd lose my entire group of muslim friends."
this is pretty much the same reason the people who do that stuff do it. they're scared of losing friends whom they only associate with when partying. it's not as much fun as it's cracked up to be.