Is it normal to be in this mental state?

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I've always had bouts of depression and just coped. However, last autumn I lost someone very close to me and it tore me apart.

Recently I've developed these phases where I'll go a few hours to a day uncontrollably laughing and talking really fast and making no sense. Just saying my thoughts out loud and acting really odd, my friends often think I'm drunk or high or something. I instantly set about writing my novels and can work for hours on end without tiring and become convinced I'm a genius or something.

When hyper like that I also set out to do stupid things, with alcohol or sex and what have you.

Then I'll suddenly just be totally crushed and feel worthless and have this kind of pent up feeling and I'll just cry and cry and just want to sleep all the time. This has gone on for months before. I've thought about killing myself many times. If anyone talks to me when I'm like this I'll end up inexplicably screaming at them.

But then I can go for long periods of time feeling relatively balanced. The people around me are pretty much unaware of how I feel sometimes because I can usually try and seem alright.

Is this normal?

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Based on 38 votes (13 yes)
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  • eAc
    12 years ago

    Like the others say here, not the one to diagnose you but I'm manic depressive/bipolar and it sounds like you might be too. If you're finding yourself going from mood to the next quite quickly (daily or hourly) then this is called rapid cycling. I suggest heading to a GP, Psychologist or Psychiatrist. My ones help heaps and if it is what you have, once you're stable you'll feel so much better.

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  • misskrum
    13 years ago

    Sounds like you might be bi-polar.

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  • WonderlandHeart
    14 years ago

    Best solution, have a chat with your GP. Everything will always work out just fine :) Sorry about your friend, its never easy. But it will get better.

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  • SweetAdeline
    14 years ago

    I agree with mtnw. I had a friend who exhibited the same behavior and she was diagnosed as bi-polar. She's fine now that she's on medication.

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  • mtnw
    14 years ago

    it's not for any of us to diagnose you, but your manic states sound so like bi-polar episodes, with stretches of normal in between. i suggest that you speak with a physician and show them the story above.

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    • mtnw
      14 years ago

      i forgot to mention that a trauma such as the one you describe, can trigger that sort of stuff, so be sure to get some help. i hope you start feeling better soon:)

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